#partly because I am bisexual

[maaayhaps]

bisexual c!Philza regardless of gender is just so perfect. it makes so much sense and it opens possibilities for sooooo many different ships amongst him, c!Kristin and c!Techno.

bi Phil with og Techno and og Kristin

bi Phil with og Techno and male Kristin

bi Phil with fem Techno and og Kristin

bi Phil with fem Techno and male Kristin

the possibilities... they are endless.

[finn-furry]

I love Zed sm

This is just gonna be a post talking about Zed because I'm going insane and I love him so much

So first movie I already knew I was gonna kin him after like the scene where he noticed his z band hand was becoming red and he was like "Nah I'm fine. Besides I have to keep making the other zombies proud." Like he cares about others people's opinions and just cares about other people over himself like hello?? That's literally me coded. He's such a loser /pos like he's so cringe and just such a loser, just like me fr

In the second movie I started kinning him so much more. Like I totally understood why he hated the werewolves at first because they got so many privileges that the zombies had to work for. He felt like it wasn't fair and I totally get that if I saw other people that didn't have to work hard for something I worked hard for it would make me pissed off too. And the song Do It Like the Zombies Do I love it sm. Because I am like 90% sure I am neurodivergent, specifically autistic, and so I have always tried to fit in to be accepted. So I totally get why Zed is trying to make the werewolves fit in because, despite not liking them he still doesn't want to see them struggle like the zombies did because he's still a nice guy, and I get why he's frustrated that they don't care about fitting in. As someone who's trying to stop masking in public because who cares what others thinks I also get kinda envious when I see people being themselves without caring. Sometimes I try to tell my other neurodivergent friends to calm down or to act more "normal" because I've learned to not be weird so I don't want my friends to be seen as weird by other people. I'm trying to stop that habit as well.

Zombies 3 I related to him doubting himself despite everyone saying he's amazing. My thoughts get to me despite what anyone says. I also relate to his immediate head over heels love for Addison because I am a hopeless romantic. I just love Zed sm and I relate to him a lot.

[scientia-rex]

Long ask. I didn't see that you had answered anything similar.

How do I do activism? Yes, I could Google it, but I would rather learn from a stranger with claimed yet unverifiable experience on Tumblr than from a stranger with claimed yet unverifiable experience anywhere else, and I'm here and so are you and we can talk and have a [para]social interaction. I won't bore you with a condensed autobiography, but I have a lot of experience fixing mistakes, not unlike being a physician, but far less noble, what David Graber would call a "duct-taper". It's partly what led me to socialism. I fixed mistakes but could not fix the root causes and, when I investigated those causes, I ran into structure. I couldn't explain the human behavior I witnessed as human nature, because it wasn't my nature and, as far as I know, I'm human, so the only explanation I could come up with was that the structure of the company I worked for created the problems I was trying to solve, and I had no power to change that structure, and no desire to join the psychopaths failing up the corporate ladder. I expanded my thinking outward and saw the problem inherent in capitalism and all the associated -isms and -archies, all the while trying to figure out what I could do that could possibly change any of it. I dove into progressive politics, read theory, consumed all the lefty content I could find, and thought, and keep running into the same problems. But even if the root causes cannot be addressed, the effects still need to be, because the effects are people, hence activism.

How do I talk to congresspeople? I email them about issues, but am frankly afraid to call them. Shall I get voice mail, or does a person pick up? If the latter, I'm assuming it will be a secretary. I don't want to be mean to a person answering phones. I've been one of those people getting yelled at or threatened because of events I did not cause and could not possibly prevent or change and, maybe I'm oversensitive or have PTSD or just a hyperactive amygdala, but I cannot overstate the damage those negative experiences cause. Sure, in the grand scheme of things, the lives that can be saved or improved outweigh a few people's hurt feelings or possible psychological trauma, but I would prefer not to turn this into a trolley problem if at all possible. Maybe it's a stupid question. Maybe I'm overthinking it. I can be charming and I have no lack of empathy; I can politely disagree. Shall I have to argue with anyone? Or is it a thank-you-for-your-participation-I-will-tell-the-congressperson-have-a-nice-day situation?

How do I get a job doing good things for people? This is somewhat pressing as I quit my corporate job five years ago, to have what turned out to be a midlife crisis, and have been living off savings (that are running out) ever since. I want to help and don't want to be ashamed of what I do for a living. I've always been able to do anything I've ever tried to do, but I'm 45 with little formal education or qualifications, and am thinking it's maybe too late to go back to school. Most of the non-profits I see seem like little more than scams. And perhaps the most serious complication: I'm a loner, more out of habit than inclination. I'll spare you the background, but I have no connections and no idea how to make them, and I don't believe I have any particular skills so valuable that should confer an immediate advantage or demand for my labor, but then again I don't know what is in demand.

It's OK if you can't answer some of these things. I simply have no one to talk to about them who can give any actual advice and figured you might. Thanks.

How to do activism: The first thing you need to know is your axe to grind. It was easy for me. I've been out since I was 13, nobody ever believes a girl is bisexual, it's always "you want attention" or "you're secretly a lesbian." That was in 1997. I went through hell and I'm bitter about it. So when I realized I liked medicine, I realized I could turn my life into an extended revenge arc by moving home and telling everybody it's OK to be gay. Two birds, one stone. I work with a woman who didn't get her axe to grind until about three years ago. She realized she was fed up with people abandoning dogs. She's one of the most active volunteers at the local shelter now. She's saved a lot of dogs' lives. She didn't start out knowing anything about it, but she told the shelter she wanted to volunteer, and they've helped her grow through the rest of it. My husband works with the local food bank, because his mom's neighbor (who is a family friend and sweetheart) wrangled him in to serving on the board, so now in addition to board meetings once a month he goes in sometimes to do things like help his mom's friend unload trucks. Sometimes the cause picks you, sometimes you pick the cause, sometimes you are the cause. And no matter what the cause is, someone else is already working on it. Someone else already cares deeply and if you show up ready to be hands on and help out, with humility because you know that you don't know everything, they will help you learn how to be effective. I started out in medicine by volunteering at the emergency room near where I lived. I pushed a linen cart around and restocked gowns in rooms, and when I couldn't fit any more washcloths into drawers I cleaned doorknobs. One of the nurses once told me she really appreciated that I cleaned all the doorknobs, because it wasn't getting regularly done. I am in medicine now because of many, many people I asked for help and who helped me because they wanted to contribute to justice and equity in medicine, whether for queers or rural people or women. This is, and has always been, a combined effort. Alone we beg, together we bargain.

Calling elected representatives: Oh god I know, me too, calling strangers is the LITERAL WORST. I'm 40 and I'd rather pepper-spray myself than argue with a human on the phone. Wait until after hours and you'll get a voicemail. I like to leave voicemails that start with "My name is Dr. Rex, I'm a constituent of yours, and I VOTE, and I'm calling about ____." That's honestly about all it takes--when I was hanging out with the lobbyist she told me they keep lists with tick-marks for how many calls, emails, etc., they get on a topic. Calls count for more. The more effort you have to put in, the more engaged they know you are. So call, but if people scare you (and the people who pick up are almost always nice, if you do get a person, and they will 99/100 times say "thank you for your call, we will pass your concerns along to so-and-so"), call at night.

Going back to school is probably unnecessary. Spin your past experience aggressively and start applying to nonprofits. (You "took time off from the working world in order to sharpen your focus on what matters most to you," which will be whatever this particular group does.) It's OK if you pick a bad one to start with; most of them are shit-shows, and lots of them still accomplish good things. Nonprofits are a bloodbath when it comes to actually being an employee--they know that part of the compensation is the sense of living ethically and they will use your altruism against you--so keep your resume updated and be prepared to bail if grant funding doesn't come through, but most areas have food banks and pet shelters and human shelters and jails and medical clinics and hospitals (for every doctor who works at the local hospital there are at least 10 support staff by the numbers, and they are utterly critical and always under-staffed). Sometimes if you start by volunteering somewhere, once they realize you're dependable, you can get a job there. I am zero percent kidding about working for a hospital, clinic, or jail, by the way. Those are places I know well, and there are always civilian jobs available. You want to make a patient's day better? Be the front desk, front line staff who use the right pronouns and cheer them up.

I think it's completely reasonable to have procedural questions about how all of this works, and I am grateful to you for giving me a chance to talk about it a bit. Please feel free to ask any follow-up questions. And for reference, when I was just starting out in research at a time when the market for research-trained people frankly sucked, I applied well over 300 times and got well over 300 rejections (I was counting) before I ended up with a job that I loved (even though it was hellishly stressful and I made just barely more than minimum wage for working well over my alleged, salaried "hours") and felt like I was making a positive difference for the world with. And from there, I kept making changes as I realized what I wanted and needed. Just keep doing it. You don't have to feel good about every step, you don't have to know what you're doing, just keep putting one foot in front of the other as you try to figure out what will make you happy. Because nothing else is a good proxy for happiness, and happiness, for a whole lot of humans, means finding something meaningful to do in life. Helping others. Be okay with changing, be okay with sacrificing who you are right now for the sake of who you can become. You've survived four decades on this bizarre and cruel planet, and you have inherent, intrinsic worth as a human being. You deserve your own kindness.

[magicalrocketships]

You talked in the author's note about having more thoughts on Max's sexuality in Breaking every rule for you. I'd love to hear more about that, if you want to? 🤍

Oh, thank you for asking!! I did a whole disassociation thing after I posted the last chapter and I was like "it's very important to reply to comments and asks about this fic which meant a lot to me to write and to receive" and then I simultaneously thought orrrrr, alternatively, you can keep putting that off because you won't be able to properly tell people how much all the comments and asks meant. Anyway, that's a perfectly sensible series of thoughts to have, which brings me to this ask.

So, Max in Breaking Every Rule For You. This is half brain-dump, half director's cut of Max's POV. Either way, I accidentally wrote 3000 words about my beloved, feral Max. Sorry? Not sorry. I'll always want to talk about him 🧡🧡

He has literally no conception of this (and neither does Daniel), but he's very much on the asexual spectrum. He's demisexual, which is a word he's never heard and wouldn't know to use even if he had. 

He continues to tell the truth about his experience of life, but Daniel doesn't know enough to understand what Max is accidentally telling him, and Max doesn't know that his experience isn't universal. So! This fic is basically Max experiencing sexual attraction for the first time.

OBVIOUSLY this does not excuse Max behaving monstrously to Zoe and being hopelessly cruel to Daniel. He is, however, experiencing a lot of stuff for the first time and he didn't know! That he could feel like this! He is horny about someone else for the first time in his life! He'd be feral anyway, and he and Daniel stay completely feral after the fic's done and long into the future, feral and horny and all over each other, but there's this whole extra layer to it that's just Max being like... you can feel like this about another person? You can want someone THIS MUCH? You can want to fuck and come and kiss and touch another human being? Everybody in the world isn't lying about wanting it?

So on the one hand you've got Daniel's much more linear experience of oh, fuck, I've been bisexual all along, and the person who's opened my eyes about it is Max, what does this mean for my life and am I allowed to have something with Max for the longer term? In contrast to Max being so fucking thirsty to experience all of these things he's wanting for the first time, and barely understanding what it is he's wanting and the impact on the lives of the people around him who love him. He's so fucking needy and he barely understands the reasoning behind that, but that's partly why he keeps bringing Daniel back and reminding him of everything he's promised, everything Max is dying to experience but hasn't yet.

Even like, right back at the beginning when Max wants pictures of Daniel, it's because he's literally never felt attraction to another person. He's never looked at someone's body and wanted to touch it (or, in Max's case, to come all over him over and and over again and make him fucking filthy and his and have him show Max how he touches himself and how he looks soft and hard and horny and everything in between).

And all the things he wants to do to Daniel, he's never done to anyone else because he was horny about it. Everything he's done is because he thought he should, because he thought everyone was faking it when they said they were horny for touching other people. He can't slow himself down. He wants all of it. And then he'll do things like just warm Daniel's dick because he didn't know it felt good, and it feels so good.

On the other hand, Max has a fixed conception of love and relationships and they are work. They are a job. He has had girlfriends because he was supposed to have girlfriends and he's literally not figured out he's gay because he's not been close to a man long enough for attraction to develop, and with Max it takes a lonnnnng time, he's known Daniel for years and it's only been in the past few months it's started to change how he feels about him, ever since Daniel said he was going to leave and Max realised he not only wanted him to stay, he wanted him. And he doesn't want what he has with Daniel (something good) to crossover into relationship (something bad, something that's work, something that's always been a to-do list item) because then it will be bad. Max is getting every single thing he wants for the very first time in his life, of course he wants to keep things exactly how they are and ringfence this space in his life where Daniel is and he's getting everything he wants. The downside is that it's horribly cruel, but he doesn't entirely understand that, because he doesn't entirely understand either how he feels or how Daniel feels, and because he thinks that what he experiences is the universal, which is that relationships and love are bad and work. 

I kind of love that Max at the beginning isn't a great kisser - Max kisses like he jerks off, fierce and unimaginative. A race to the finish line. One day Daniel will make him slow it down. And part of that is literally because he's never enjoyed it before. He's never kissed anyone he wanted to have kiss him back.

But also, Max loves to jerk off. He loves to jerk off. Masturbation is the one thing he's always loved to do, because he's never been low on sexual desire, just attraction. He's jerked off thinking about Daniel before, too. Even before being really attracted to him. It's sort of why he wants Daniel in his bed, not because it's where he shares with Zoe when she's in Monaco, but because it's where Max jerks off, which is the one hugely positive sexual thing he's ever had in his life. Yeah, there's also some kind of "having a girlfriend is boring and work and I'm beating the system by having a better time in the space where that boring work happens" but Max isn't pre-meditiatively cruel in this. His cruelty is a by-product. 

Also: Max doesn't know that things can be better than what he has. 

He's barely managed to get his shirt off before Max is launching himself at him, making some Max-like attempt at human touch by cupping Daniel's face in his hands and pressing their mouths together. It's not romantic. It's not anything, other than fast, and maybe a little furious.

"You talked about kissing me," Max says, pulling away just enough that Daniel can feel the heat of his breath against his mouth. He's still cupping Daniel's face, and Daniel wants to cover Max's hands with his own and keep him there, make him stay still, make time slow down for them just this fucking once. "You said you thought about it. Kissing me. I've never kissed anyone like that, Daniel. I want it."

Max is telling Daniel the truth but Daniel doesn't pick up on it. Max hasn't ever kissed anyone like this before. And he wants it. 

Daniel spends a lot of time thinking about Zoe. Max doesn't think about her at all. He buys Daniel gifts because he's wild about him, because he needs to, like, put some of what he's feeling out into the world but he just— doesn't know how to do it. He's overflowing with it. 

"Think all the time about kissing you," Max tells him, still kneeling over him, leaning in so that he can mouth at Daniel's neck, kiss him so that Daniel will have a fucking love bite he'll have to cover with concealer if he wants to leave the house. Daniel doesn't stop him. Max can mark him up any way he wants. Daniel will take any scrap he can get. People shouldn't live off scraps, but Daniel will take anything Max throws at him. He'll judge himself later. "You have a good mouth, Daniel, I think about it so much." He kisses Daniel's jaw, along the line of it, over his stubble and up to his ear. It is not foreplay. It is just Max, taking what he wants. Daniel giving it because he wants the whole fucking lot of it and to drown in it afterwards. Better drown than starve. Max kisses his cheek, the corner of his mouth. Once, twice. The side of his nose. Is this Max, trying to be gentle with him? Trying to give something he normally only takes?

And then Daniel changes things, he tries to break up with Max and Max goes insane with it. For Max, Daniel really is ruining things. He is being a stupid motherfucker. This really is just sex because Max doesn't know how to understand what he's feeling. And he doesn't want to feel! Feeling is bad. He keeps trying to make the feelings stop. Of course Max just keeps trying to take things back to the space where things were working, because he wants it so much. Of course he's jealous, because he's fucking feral and a mess and he has no idea how to feel things like a real boy, because he never fucking has, and how he feels about Daniel is really fucking easy if only he knew how to identify or name any of the feelings he's feeling. 

So yeah: Max is heartbroken for the first time in his life, but he also just doesn't understand it. His chest hurts. He wants Daniel back in the space where it was all working. Daniel isn't the stupid motherfucker, Max is, for not managing to keep it so that Daniel would still kiss him and want him and touch him and text him, and Max is for not being able to stop himself from feeling stuff he doesn't understand. And then Zoe goes, and he doesn't feel anything. Not really. The only thing he's thinking about is Daniel. And then you get Max's entirely pragmatic, ruthless side, whereby he just makes sure Daniel is safe. He pays whatever he needs to pay to make sure Zoe is satisfied. He tells her the truth about not feeling about her the way he feels about Daniel. He doesn't mean to be cruel. It's a by-product again. It still is hopelessly cruel. He still only wants Daniel. He's the stupid motherfucker, not Daniel. 

And all the time, Max thinking he can get Daniel back to what they had before if only he keep trying. He knows Daniel wants him back. And he thinks he's getting it. He thinks he's getting Daniel back. It's want like he's never wanted. He thinks he's managed it, and then Daniel just— shuts him down. And Max just… breaks. It takes him by surprise as much as it takes Daniel when he sees Max crying, like he's crying and he didn't mean to start but he also can't stop. He loves him. That's what this is. 

"You are not listening," Max says, wiping his tears on his shoulder. "All of this time I am trying and I am trying not to want you and not to feel things but it did not work and I do and I did and I feel it in here and it won't stop." He presses the side of his fist to his chest, like Max is referring to his own fucking heart, which he can't be, because Max is Max, and Max doesn't feel anything, and he doesn't fucking feel anything for Daniel. "It is not fair that you won't listen. Always I am asking how do I make it stop, because you are just supposed to be sex, you are dick and that is for the dark and instead you are always just here, in my head and you have made me go mad thinking about you. Everything I do is very insane and it is all about you and my girlfriend left me and I do not care because she is not you and you tell me that you miss me too but now you are saying no when I want you more than I want anything and it is not okay."

It's the first time in his life he's ever been in love, and he's trying to make sense of it because he couldn't stop loving Daniel if he tried, but here's Daniel telling him he doesn't, and that he's stopped, and that is just— so far outside of Max's understanding. It's not fair and it's not okay and he doesn't know how Daniel could stop loving him if love is what he feels back for Daniel. 

And then he stays. He tells Daniel that no one kisses him like Daniel does. He says: "Nobody touches me like you do," Max says, which is probably a lie since Zoe loved him and wanted him and probably would have touched Max any way he wanted if he'd only told her. "Nobody, Daniel, nobody makes me feel like you do."

Daniel makes a soft, unholy noise in the back of his throat.

"It's true," Max says, urgently. "It is true."

Daniel doesn't realise how true. That no one has ever made Max feel or want like this. That this is the first time he's ever been attracted to someone. 

And for Max it's so clearly worlds apart from him and Zoe. They're not comparable. 

"She was my girlfriend," Max says. "But I didn't love her like I love you."

For a moment, Daniel's brain judders to a halt. It's felt like he's been on a constant spin cycle since last night, but for a moment, everything's still. "Yeah?"

"With you it is very different," Max says. "Everything is very different."

He keeps stroking the inside of Daniel's wrist. Daniel can't think of anything to say. He just watches Max touch him.

"Of course I kissed her, Daniel. She was my girlfriend. I did all the things you're supposed to do with your girlfriend. You cannot be tearing yourself up into knots about her when she is gone and you are here."

And

"I thought about your dick a lot. I thought I would like to see it. I jerked off and used my fingers and thought about you jerking off. I thought if I was going to suck a dick then it would be nice if it was yours."

"You had a girlfriend."

"Yes. I had everything I was supposed to want. Red Bull and Zoe and one day I will have my World Championship. But not you because you are a stupid motherfucker and you left me."

And Max loves jerking off. It's his favourite thing. 

But like, Max finally gets what he didn't know he wanted, which is more than just having sex at regular and irregular intervals, he gets a boyfriend, someone he can actually love and want to be with and it's all turning his conception of relationships and love upside down and he has to re-evaluate how that fits into his life, because relationships have been a boring part of work before, and now they're not, so he just has to… figure that shit out. 

This conversation where Daniel asks Max if he's gay: 

"Max," he says softly, after a minute. "Max, do you like girls?"

Max shifts on the pillow. He rolls his eyes. "Of course I do, Daniel, do not ask stupid questions. They are 50% of the population."

"I'm not—" Daniel searches Max's face. He wants to find something there that Max isn't showing him, some measure of understanding, of common ground beyond the fact that they're fucking and in love. "Do you like dating them?"

"I am dating you," Max says, as if he's talking to someone who barely understands English.

"Yes, but. Before. Did you like having sex with girls?"

"Zoe was my girlfriend. Of course I liked having sex with her."

This isn't Max just obfuscating. He hasn't defined himself as gay. He is, but he didn't necessarily— need to know it or define himself as such? It just wasn't important to him. He didn't really want to have sex with anyone so not wanting to have sex with girls less than him not wanting to have sex with guys he wasn't attracted to didn't matter so much? And now there's Daniel so it's even less of an issue because it turns out he can ferally cheat on Zoe for months and still not intend to ever be with anyone who isn't Daniel. 

Honestly it's more of a journey than Daniel will ever know to get Max to this: 

"I will do better," Max says, when there's nothing else coming, and Daniel's about to step out into the road. "I will learn, Daniel. To be a good boyfriend." 

It's not something he ever even considered before, and now not only does he want to, he's going to work on it too. 

Max smiles at him. He still fingers Daniel, because Max likes to multi-task and do it efficiently, but he lets his gaze rest on Daniel's. He looks happy. He looks so, so happy. "It has never been like this," he says, and Daniel doesn't say because you've been having sex with girls and you don't like them. He'll believe it's just about him. That Max feels like this about him and him alone.

Max telling the ultimate truth - it never has been like this, not a single element of it. Not kissing, not sex, not loving somebody else. Daniel doesn't entirely hear it, but then why would he? Even Max doesn't realise how much of a truth it is. 

"I always thought people were lying about kissing," Max says, without moving or looking at him or anything. "It was so boring. Everyone had to be lying. Nobody could like it unless they liked boring things."

What the fuck.

"So boring," Max says. He still doesn't move or look at him "Sex was boring too. I didn't know why anybody went out of their way when they could just jerk off. Masturbating was so much better than sex, Daniel."

Christ. Daniel's fingers twitch in Max's. "Did you ever think that was because you didn't like girls? And you kept having sex with them?"

"Eh," Max says, and shrugs. "I kissed boys too. Two of them. It was still boring."

Daniel's never thought sex was boring. He's liked it pretty much every time he's had it. He's been kissing girls since he was 14 and could make them laugh enough to kiss him over bags of crisps after school. He thinks about the two boys Max has kissed. What he did with them. When it was. Who it was. If he really thought it was awful. "Do you still think it's boring?"

Max shifts at that, twisting so he can look up at Daniel with the most insulted, don't be fucking stupid look on his face. "I have just licked my come out of your ass, Daniel. I want to have sex with you all the time. All of the things I jerked off thinking about doing I want to do with you. I want to kiss you forever."

Anyway. TL;DR, Max is demisexual and is new to sexual attraction and wouldn't be able to label himself as that if somebody paid him. 

[infiniteeight8]

Tony wants to have sex with Stephen but, despite what the rumors say, he’s never actually been with a man before, and he’s not sure how to approach this with Stephen. He finally has to admit the truth when the perfect opportunity appears and Tony’s out of excuses. And the truth is he’s nervous. (Less of a sex fic and more an emotional one) (also Stephen’s experience with men is up to you!)

The tabloids started speculating about Tony’s sexuality when he was fourteen. By the time he turned twenty-five they’d stopped speculating and just started assuming that he was bisexual. And they’re not exactly wrong, but of the dozens of men that have been splashed across sensationalist pages as his latest fling, Tony has slept with exactly none of them.

Partly that’s because it’s easier with women, but mostly that’s because Tony is much pickier about men. He finds most women at least a little bit attractive, but with men… well, sometimes it seems like the stars have to align before that electric thrum of interest sparks. Tony had assumed that meant he was unlikely to find a man he actually wanted as a partner.

Fate is laughing at him now

Who ever imagined that Tony would one day curse his past self’s restraint? Damn it, if he’d fucked a few marginally interesting guys he’d have some idea what to do with the absolutely spectacular man currently taking his pants off!

He could stop everything. He’s done it before. But he doesn’t want to stop, and it’s not like that would fix the problem, anyway; Tony isn’t about to fuck around on Stephen, and there’s really no other solution. So Tony steels himself. “Stephen.”

Stephen must hear something in his voice, because he stops immediately, propping himself up on one elbow and looking down at Tony. “Something wrong?”

“No,” Tony says quickly. He swallows hard. Here goes nothing. “I just… haven’t actually done this before.” He’s expecting the surprise. Tony braces himself for the disbelief that will surely follow.

Stephen laughs and shakes his head. “That’ll teach me to give the tabloids any credit at all,” he says wryly. “I’m not rushing you, am I?"

Relief almost makes Tony dizzy. “You’re not rushing me at all,” Tony promises. “I want this. I just didn’t want you to be disappointed.”

Stephens expression softens. “Tony, I’m not here because I want an expert lover. I’m here because I want you.”

Tony blushes. “Charmer,” he teases, and pulls Stephen into another kiss.

[anantplayingdnd]

In honor of pride month I want to hear about how queer you made Barovia please and thank you.

For my game:

Strahd is a bisexual king right out of the book, which is awesome.

Rahadin is asexual, but not in like, an ace kind of way. Like in a single-celled organism kind of way.

Ireena is aroace! A decision partly inspired by a certain pool of water (iykyk), and also because she’s a little bit my self-insert. A PC hit on her in like session four and was immediately told, “Do not ever speak to me that way again.” She’s iconic and I adore her.

IZMARK. IZ. GAY. And madly in love with the druid. Unfortunately Izmark does not know he is gay. He believes it is very normal to lovingly stare into your homie's eyes and look down at his lips and imagine what it would be like to kiss him. And it is very normal to comment on how attractive your homie is, cause that's just what bros do.

Vollenta is a beautiful lesbian who refuses to let the fact that she is married to Strahd change the fact that she is a lesbian and nobody will tell her or her pile of bodies otherwise.

Ludmilla is on the ace spectrum. I mean, come on. She's with the guy for power and grant money. She says she loves him, and they're definitely intimate, but she's the kind of girly to take notes before during and after, you know?

Escher. What even needs to be said about Escher. He's Ravenloft's resident twink and proud of it. He's a little lonely and can't stop thinking about the boy he was in love with when he was young, who is now old and grizzled from age, while Escher himself remains the same age he was when he betrayed his lover and chose Strahd instead, but like... he's also pretty and immortal, so who cares?

(Escher Bonus Content: Two moms! They loved him very much and were upsettingly supportive of his decision to become Strahd's newest consort)

Anastrasya: idk she's dead pre-campaign in mine so if you came here looking for commentary on her you will not get it.

Ezmerelda is a trans lesbian! She's gorgeous and I adore her. She's just so confident that she can kill Strahd on her own and I think she's right for that. I knew I wanted her to be a love interest for one of my PCs, and it just so happens that the player in question has a type.

Danika is also bi, and she's very happily married to her wonderful little husband. This hasn't come up in the campaign at all it's just something I know to be true in my heart.

The Abbot: Gender! Fluid! Call them whatever you want. He/him when you want to play on ideas of masculinity in religious circles, they/them when you want to make them seem undefinable, she/her when you want your PCs to reflect on how much mom trauma they all have :)

Sergei is straight but that man loves the queer community so much and he deserves an honorable mention.

Arrigal is gay and very pissed that the party keeps knocking on his wagon door at 3am. His ex-husband/current boyfriend has been coerced into co-parenting a child with the cleric.

Edit: FORGOT ABOUT THE RESIDENT SPOOKY SPECTRAL LADS BUT TO BE FAIR THEY ARE CANON AND MY PARTY ISN’T THERE YET

There's definitely others but these are my versions of the little guys. I am so interested to hear other people's takes on them.

[erynshouseofhorrors]

My Queer Marble Hornets Headcanons

This is mostly going to be Alex, Jay, Brian, and Tim since I'm not as familiar with the other characters. Jessica's at the end but there's not a lot, so I welcome people to add on!

Warning: Tim/Brian/Unnamed OC, Jay/Alex, Amy/Jessica, and mentioned Alex/Amy. Obviously very little of this is canon lol.

Jay Merrick

Jay is canonically gay and I think that just fits. He didn't find out he was gay until their junior year of high school, thanks to a guy whose name he has long forgotten.

Jay is definitely transmasc. I don't think they're entirely male, but not exactly both male and female. He's somewhere in-between male and neutral. I purposefully left their AGAB up to interpretation, I think it could go either way. Transmasc just means identifying with a masc gender that you weren't assigned at birth.

Jay uses he/they pronouns.

The first person outside of Jay's family that they came out to was Alex during their sophomore year of university. Alex is also the only one of his friends aware of Jay's struggle with gender identity, making their bond extra special. Eventually Jessica would also be looped in on that secret.

He thinks about using makeup, but they're too scared to actually buy himself anything in fear of judgement... until Alex bought him an eyeshadow palette.

They actually got pretty good at applying and styling makeup, and he helped Alex out by being the makeup artist (and script supervisor) for Marble Hornets.

Alex Kralie

I can't picture him dating a girl and actually enjoying it. His relationship with labels is difficult, because he struggles to tell the difference between romantic attraction and platonic love, which is mostly why he got with Amy to begin with. They broke up because Alex wouldn't take their relationship past a kiss on the cheek and arm around the shoulder.

When he met Jay his freshman year of uni, that was the first time he felt physically attracted to someone. The weeks to follow were filled with "am I gay" quizzes and articles.

Alex only settled on the gay label for the sake of convenience. He doesn't mind going unlabeled or switching labels around as things change and his relationships grow.

He probably doesn't know this yet, but he's definitely on the asexual spectrum. He feels sexual attraction, but only sometimes. I hc him as either greyace or demiace.

Alex uses he/him pronouns.

Brian Thomas

Brian uses both pansexual and bisexual to describe his sexuality. "Ass is ass, man. I don't care."

His sexuality has never been something he hid, but it also wasn't obvious to his straight peers. He'll casually bring up an ex-boyfriend or first kiss and everyone has their jaw on the floor. Almost everyone. Tim's usually in the corner of the room, smirking at their obliviousness.

Brian uses he/him pronouns, but he won't flip his lid if someone calls him something else. He knows his identity isn't defined by how others choose to perceive him.

He's definitely that friend who's known they were gay since grade school, so he's well educated on queer history and terminology. He even helped Alex and Tim out while they were questioning.

He dated Tim in their early years at uni, but split up after Tim had a mental breakdown and ghosted him for a few months.

Brian is also ambiamorous, which means he's okay with being in a monogamous or polyamorous relationship. This is partly why he wasn't too upset when Tim moved on and started dating a girl from another town. Why try bagging your ex when you can bag him and his new girlfriend, am I right?

Tim Wright

Tim never bothered with sexuality labels until he was finally free of psychosis and constant hospital visits. He was too busy fighting for his life to think and fantasize about love interests.

He was completely convinced he was straight until he and Brian shared a drunken kiss the night after final exams. After that, he and Brian were hooking up in secret, and Tim was having an identity crisis behind the scenes.

Tim and Brian were together for at least a few months before Tim ghosted him. It wasn't his fault, or Brian's. Tim's psychosis had been coming back, causing him to self-isolate out of paranoia. Whenever Brian tried reaching out, Tim replied with radio silence.

After getting better (again) he was too scared to contact Brian, so he forced himself to move on. And he did! He started dating a girl he met while working, and things just kind of took off. And then Brian enters his life again.

His girlfriend, surprisingly, was amused by Brian's flirtatious remarks toward her and Tim, and even teased back. After a long conversation with Tim, they decided to ask Brian out.

Tim still doesn't care for labels, but when asked he'll say he's bisexual and ambiamorous. Also he uses he/him because I forgot to mention that.

Jessica Locke

I believe someone working with Troy on the comics believes Jessica is a lesbian and honestly I love that interpretation. Nothing about her screams "straight" to me.

I truly, truly believe Jessica is trans MTF. She does voice training every morning to get better at sounding feminine, mostly to avoid harassment from her peers.

She's incredibly skilled with makeup, since she's had lots of practice in middle school. She was the one Jay came to when he got his first eyeshadow palette from Alex.

Jessica was there for Amy when she and Alex split. They had a sleep over for three nights in a row, ignoring the fact that they were roommates and already slept in the same building. They switched back and forth between Jessica's room and Amy's, making pillow forts and watching cartoons until all thoughts of Alex were gone. A month later, Amy asked Jessica on a date.

Honestly I think she'd be okay with any variant of she/her, so get creative.

aaaaaaa I hope you enjoyed! I haven't posted any headcanons before so I am nervous lol also fyi I didn't proofread this so oh well

[dominikadecember]

i think the reason why i enjoy queer content so much is partly because when i was a kid growing up in a country where queers were not existent (Poland) there was nothing like it, and then i moved to a city (LONDON) which was multicultural and multiqueer and multi everything and yeah this place sucks major balls (not in a fun way) but it was the first place ive ever witnessed wlw holding hands, mlm kissing, fucking queer families being as exasperated as hetero families and it changed my entire world so i may obsessively consume queer media and get specifically interested in mlm or wlw ships (mlm more ikn and that's a whole different can of worms) because part of me is still in absolute wonder that this CAN be reality

the LGBT+ community has come a very long way in the last (almost) 29 years i've been alive and i am so happy that the kids today feel brave enough to proudly advertise they are part of the queer community because when i was a kid it didnt happen and that is just so fucking wonderful to me, yah get me? god, just the last fucking decade has brought on some massive changes in the world for us (just look at Seychelles!)

so my blog will always feature queer ships more prominently than hetero ships

i myself am bisexual and love using the word queer because where once it was a slur to me, now i feel like i have redefined that word in my dictionary

and i just wanted to bring that up for reasons not very clear to me rn

enjoy your stuff peeps

[wwandaslover]

New Romantics

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taylor swift x fem reader!writer

warnings: swearing, taking pills (melatonin), reader is tall (5’10), reader is feminine.

you woke up before taylor with a horrible headache, you were a bit hungover. you gently maneuvered out of her grasp and you went into the kitchen and began making food for the two of you.

taylor slowly woke up and was a bit confused until she realized she was in your house. she smelled what you were cooking and shuffled into the kitchen with her eyes half lidded and she kept yawning.

you noticed her and smiled, “go sit on one of those stools.” she nodded in response and sat on one of the stools at the island. you placed a plate of food in front of her along with some water.

you both ate in silence for a few minutes before taylor finally broke the silence “im sorry i came over so late, i should’ve at least called beforehand.” you looked up at her across from you and smiled “you don’t need to apologize, i dont mind really.”

she sighed in relief and then continued to eat and so did you but you began losing your appetite as you thought more about what was happening. you couldn’t believe her and joe had broken up partly because of you.

you got more anxious and simply couldn’t eat anymore, you walked over to the trash can and threw away the food. you went back to where you were standing while eating and briefly looked at taylor, making eye contact in that short moment.

you cleared your throat and she looked up at you with a confused and slightly nervous expression. “taylor, why didn’t you just stop being my friend for joe?” your voice was quiet and cracked a little as you spoke. “because me and joe weren’t doing well anyways, and you’re my best friend.”

you smiled a little at her and then went to your sink and began washing your plate. taylor came up behind you and you didn’t know until she put a hand on your waist and moved you so she could wash her plate as well.

after she did that you grabbed her plate and yours and put them in the dishwasher. you stood up and taylor was looking at you. you smiled and laughed a little “what? why are you staring at me?” she smiled back “because you’re amazing.”

you rolled your eyes and grinned embarrassedly, “how am i amazing?” taylor laughed before she realized you were genuinely asking “you’re an amazing writer and friend, and your personality is also amazing.”

you didn’t respond you just blushed and smiled while while looking away from her. after a few seconds you changed the subject. “so uhm what do you want to do?” taylor thought for a moment before speaking “let’s just watch tv.”

you two sat on the couch next to eachother and watched a show on netflix. while you were watching it taylor’s hand was getting closer to yours. you didn’t notice till the side of her hand touched yours.

you tried to ignore it but eventually she held your hand and you looked over at her and she was still watching tv. she looked over at you and smiled when she saw you were blushing, then she looked away.

taylor continued watching the show. she was turning more anxious by the second because she wanted to tell you something but you didn’t notice anything was happening until she turned to you with a worried expression.

you turned to her and looked at her a bit confused, “what’s wrong?” taylor could feel her heart beating through her chest and she spoke quietly “im bisexual.” your expression immediately softened and you smiled at her.

you didn’t really know what to say in that moment so you hugged her. she hugged back and a few tears ran down her cheeks “i havent told anyone else yet” you pulled away from the hug and looked her in the eyes while smiling at her.

after a few seconds of looking at each other taylor kissed you and immediately pulled away. “shit. i’m so sorry, i shouldn’t have done that.” you stared at her in shock for a moment before speaking, “no, no, it’s okay. im not upset, i liked it.” she blushed and just stared at you with a surprised expression.

the rest of that day neither of you talked about the kiss. around midnight you were laying in your bed unable to sleep, you had been having these issues lately. some days you’d go to sleep at 4 am and wake up at noon, some days you would go to sleep at 11 pm and wake up at 3 am, then again at 5 am.

you quietly left your room, not wanting to wake up taylor in the guest room. you crept into the kitchen and went to the medicine cabinet, you opened it and grabbed a melatonin pill. you got a glass of water and swallowed the pill.

you went back to your room and laid in bed waiting for the melatonin to work. taylor quietly opened your door and peaked her head through. she saw you were still awake so she went over to the other side of the bed and sat down. you groaned and spoke quietly “i can’t sleep.” she sighed and laid down facing you, “neither can i.”

you stared at the ceiling while you and taylor continued to talk for around an hour until you both fell asleep and ended up with you two spooning while sleeping.

[ironunderstands]

Do you ship trailblazer with someone (fem and male), also what sexuality headcanon do you have for Topaz

I absolutely despise 99% of Trailblazer ships so no, honestly. I think it’s because TB ships are partly self inserts and I do not ship myself with any of the characters so no not really.

However, I do like the idea of Fireblazer, but it was executed pretty terribly. It’s fun in my head though.

As for Topaz, in canon I think she’s just a cis lesbian or at least sapphic, however the creature running around in my brain is an intersex, nonbinary and bisexual disaster, who presents femininely and has a femme preference (I really wish I liked more sapphic Topaz ships beyond just finding TopaJade interesting, because I wanna give our resident milf hunter the woman she deserves) so there’s that lmao.

Also random ass sketch of Topaz I did yesterday (no I didn’t finish it at all I’m LAZYYY)

God I love them.

I adore canon Topaz too of course, but sometimes it’s just fun to OC-ify characters. If you’re wondering why I gave her melanin honestly I don’t have a deep reason for it, it just looks good lmao. Lighter skinned Topaz is also great (especially considering her home planet seems to be of Slavic origin), but I think brown looks really good w their color palette which is why I changed it, so please don’t throw hammers at me 😭

Honestly in terms of story they are all relatively close to canon (although at least for Topaz, I make it so the IPC deliberately waited for the point of no return on their planet and she still doesn’t know about it bc angst Mmm).

Ratio is pretty close to canon because they cooked w that one + all the wild ass theories about him I make (and the being trans thing haha)

As for Aventurine, his story is also rather similar but I honestly don’t really like his canon design that much so maybe I should give him a redesign. His outfit is so ugly I’m sorry. I am Aventurine’s outfits’ number one hater and besides the colors it’s just not for me

[lewisshipsthings]

Dungeon Meshi Sexuality Headcanons

Pre-warnings:

—SPOILERS FOR THE MANGA. I’ve finished reading the whole thing, and I’m not gonna worry about censoring. Read at your own peril!

—I multiship sometimes, and in a similar vein, I have multiple sexuality headcanons. These are the just the main vibes they give me currently.

THIS IS BY NO MEANS meant to be an objective thing. I am *totally* fine with people having different headcanons. The series ended with no sexualities confirmed, and there’s room for different headcanons even IF there were confirmed sexualities. Stories are not meant to be exclusive.

—I’m using the term pansexual to mean interest in all genders, with gender not really making a difference; and bisexual to mean interest in all genders, but gender does make a difference. I have heard this as a definition, but I’m sure not everyone uses it this way. I’m sorry if I got something wrong.

—I’m queer myself, but that doesn’t prevent me from making mistakes, so I’m really sorry if I worded something weirdly. I’m very open to corrections.

Laios: aroace spectrum, straight

I see him as mostly totally aro, and still on the ace spectrum but just a bit higher (or is it lower?). Partly this is based on the succubus scene. Partly this is just vibes.

I can see him deciding as a king that marrying and having heirs is important, and so marrying a woman who is independent enough that she would be ok with a mostly platonic relationship. He’d probably really enjoy infrequent sex with her, and they’d be best friends who each had their own stuff going on.

I’m not entirely sure why he seems on the straight side to me, but he does.

(I recently read someone on Reddit talking about how Laios marrying the orc woman would be cool, and I now have a new rarepair. I know the orc woman wasn’t into it, but maybe if she could maintain her independence, she’d enjoy it.)

Falin: gay

Partly based on her resolute rejection of Shuro, who is quite a handsome fellow. (Obviously rejecting a handsome man doesn’t make you gay. It’s just one of the things that gives her a gay vibe to me.) Partly it’s her attitude towards Marcille. Although she isn’t my favourite character, I do see a fair bit of myself in Falin, so her being queer makes sense to me.

Chilchuck: straight

I quite like the Chilchuck/Senshi ship as well, so sometimes I like to headcanon him as bi. But honestly, most of the time he seems like an ordinary straight dude to me, especially in the succubus scene with the never ending stream of hot blondes.

Marcille: bisexual

There’s her succubus (a man) and her attitude towards Falin (a woman). I actually kind of think she leans straight, but if the right woman comes along (*cough* Falin), she’d fall deeply.

Senshi: demisexual, pansexual

He’s a tough one for me. I feel like he has the potential for a deep, slow relationship with the right person, but he’d mostly be ok without that. The pansexual part is mostly coming from some Lord of the Rings fanfics I read cantering around dwarves, where gender expression is pretty identical between male and female dwarves, and gender doesn’t seem to matter for most of them. I know this isn’t the world of Dungeon Meshi, but some of that seems to have crept into my imagination, because it influenced my headcanon of Senshi. Partly because of this, and partly because of the boob touching scene, I sometimes have a trans headcanon for him as well.

Izutsumi: aroace (with a straight cat side)

Her succubus scene seemed to say that her cat side had sexual attraction and her human side didn’t. But I think she’s too human to actually want to be with a total cat, and I think even another half beast person would be utterly uninteresting for her human side.

But for some reason, the cat that the succubus disguised itself as seemed male to me (did it actually specify? I don’t remember), so there’s like, the tiniest hint of straightness in her.

Kabru: bisexual

I see him charming the pants off both men and women and enjoying both equally. I don’t think he would go at it the same way with different genders though, and don’t see him as pan. I think he has a great capacity for friendship too, though. I mean, all the characters do. It’s a really important part of the manga. But there’s something about Kabru that I can’t quite articulate, in how I see romance, sex, and friendship interacting for him. (Maybe one day I’ll figure out how to articulate it and edit this post.)

Mithrun: past bisexual, current demisexual and pansexual

He’s an interesting case. I believe that when he lost his desires, he lost his general desires for sex and romance, just like he lost his general desire for food/sleep/etc. However, just like it’s inferred he can grow new desires for specific foods like noodles, I believe he could grow specific desires for specific people now. But he’d never be attracted to someone right off the bat, without getting attached to them slowly. Basically the textbook definition of demi. And pansexual just in the sense that he lost any gender-specific desires. Some of that could grow a bit, though, if he fell for someone.

I have no reason for thinking past Mithrun was bi, it’s just vibes, and I like the headcanon.

Minor characters:

—Shuro: straight

Because of his interest in Falin, and he just seems straight to me. I enjoy shipping him with Laios sometimes, though. Every character has potential for hidden bisexuality, for me. :)

—Namari: gay

I think she’s cool and I’d like her to be gay, plus I like the ship with her and Kiki.

—Lycion: bi

He seems jealous of Kabru with Mithrun, and calls Mithrun handsome. I could see just gay as well. But I like the ship with him and Fleki, and bi would fit well. I also feel like the body dysmorphia stuff he has going on would fit well with being trans.

—Cithis: gay

No good reason. Just selfish. She’s super hot and I want her to be gay. I don’t think she’d have an aversion to sex with men, though. It just wouldn’t be her preference.

If anyone wants to share their headcanons, feel free to reblog with them! I’d love to hear other perspectives!!

[crescenthistory]

Hi lovely, congrats on 2k, it's so so well deserved 💖 can I ask for an interpret please? Please be aware that I'm about to ramble and probably give too much information because I don't know when to shut up.

First things first, my personality type is INFP, I am autistic, I am an only child who was raised by a single parent, who is also an only child so pretty lonely for us both. I grew up with very little money and still have minimal money, so expensive stuff stresses me out because even if I can afford it that month, it's hard to convince myself it's something I can do. I am mostly housebound, I make it outside about twice a week, but it's usually spent doing shopping or swimming (for physio), so I don't really get to socialise.

I dropped out of education during sixth form due to health issues but I had no interest in being there anyway, I was just resitting my English GCSE so I could get a basic job that I didn't care about while using my free time to become a published writer. My body had other plans.

I mostly write fanfiction, but I do have a in-progress interactive fiction queer romance game (all characters are some variant of bisexual, based on love island) that I've been working on for two years now and is a monster at 700k words so far. I am also working on a romance novel where the FMC is disabled (this probably doesn't surprise you).

For music, my top three artists are Taylor Swift, Lucy Spraggan and Ed Sheeran, and my current favourite song is Peter by Taylor Swift. My favourite movies tend to be the ones I grew up on, so Sister Act, Volcano, Gone In 60 Seconds, the Fast & Furious movies, the Harry Potters and Miss Congeniality. For TV, I watch a lot of Grey's Anatomy, 9-1-1 and Criminal Minds, but I'll watch anything that has way too many seasons as that means I don't have to pick something new for a while. I also prefer TV shows to movies since shows generally last longer before I have to pick something else.

I cannot think of anything else, which is probably a good thing because this is way too long already.

hahahah, hi my darling chan<33 i actually thoroughly enjoy your rambles, thank you for sharing with me 🫂 you're such a lovely individual and i really appreciate you<33 thank you for your kind words! this ended up being much longer on my end than i expected too, so this is proof that you get the same treatment back that you put out there lmao

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i will INTERPRET for moons-and-mobility-aids

carina's 2k celebration

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i think you and remus lupin would make a lovely couple!

your mindset towards relationships and life seems to be quite similar to the one i have, and what i value above all else in a relationship is understanding, communication and friendship – exactly what you would get from remus. of course he shares a deep understanding of loneliness, economic hardship and disability and will thus be able to get you more thoroughly from the get go, but even the parts of you he cannot relate to, he would go out of his way to learn more about. whether that be your autism or your passion for writing, he would look at you with his big kind eyes and try to learn everything. similarly, when he's in love with you, he would be truly invested in your projects and would happily hear all about or even assist you in your queer romance game. remus' primary love language is acts of service (partly because he thinks it's the only way for him to be worthy and partly because he loves helping his partners) and he would assure you that he enjoys taking care of you in whatever way you need that day. he would adore watching nostalgic tv shows with you as he engages in some of his own hobbies (knitting, puzzling, reading, etc.) or while he gives you massages.

though, i will also add that i think lily evans could be a wonderful partner for you!

for much of the same reasons as with remus, lily would feel a certain kindred connection with you that would infatuate her all the more with you. she's a passionate person who adores engaging others in their own passions, so she would happily trade rants back and forth about whatever artistic project the two of you are currently engaging in on your own. lily is somewhat of a homebody in my mind, but she also enjoys going to the shops and running errands, so it would be no burden for her to do that for you. she is also such a patient and empathetic person that i think could truly make you feel loved and seen.

(so if you're a poly!moonflower truther, you know what to do here)

[readingbibooks]

“Biphobic attitudes are often linked to assumptions that bisexuals cannot be monogamous. Many religious communities have little understanding of polyamory, but this is not the issue here. Even monogamous bisexuals have to deal with an assumption that they will cheat on their partners. In 2015, I wrote a comment piece in the Church Times to mark Bisexual Visibility Day on 23 September. Two weeks later, the letters page included a letter from a reader who said that 'Homosexual behaviour may be tolerated' in an exclusive rela-tionship, but that 'Bisexual behaviour cannot be anything other than promiscuity! He asked, 'Is the author suggesting that the Church advocate sexual promiscuity?'

Since coming out as a bisexual Christian, I have found a number of Christians who are okay with people being gay but less okay with bisexuality. This is partly because of this prejudicial assumption about promiscuity. However, there are other reasons too. Within Christianity, 'conservative' Christians have often dictated the terms of the debate, putting the pro-equality wing on the defensive. Thus, debates get bogged down in contrasting interpretations of the tiny number of biblical passages that can be interpreted as forbidding same-sex relationships.

One of the most bizarre 'liberal' arguments is to claim that the apparent condemnations of homosexual behaviour in the Bible are not condemning gay people but were aimed at heterosexuals who were also interested in sex with people of their own gender.

I am surprised how often this argument is made. As a bisexual, I struggle to make sense of it. Who are these 'heterosexual' people who are interested in sex with people of their own gender? I can suggest a word for people who are sexually attracted to both men and women; it is not 'heterosexual'. The logical conclusion of this argument is that these passages are not condemning gay and lesbian people; they are condemning bisexuals.”

- Symon Hill, Purple Prose: Bisexuality in Britain

[bringsexybackk]

I spent the day inside sort of just hanging out. Didn't feel like doing too much today and sometimes that scares me. I wanna stay busy and be active and do physical activities but I get scared?? Scared to find my area and my place here because I feel like I am just not a part of this puzzle. I walk into the store and feel people staring at me and can even hear their thoughts. It scares me, I miss being looked at as "normal" but I also like being a wake up call for people to realize that not everyone is cookie cutter in this fucking town. BRING BACK PERSONALIZATION!! FUCK THE STANDARDS OF THE MALE GAZE!

That is partly why I chose this song and the other reason is because..BOYS! I know I don't talk about them often but Bella's new bae/crush has been refreshing. I haven't been able to really find any men here that are gentler and just calm--like friends in New York. He and I talked about sexuality for a bit and he told me he's bisexual and he just made me feel heard. He's so sweet and BEAUTIFUL SPECIMEN (he's the one posted on my story right now) but I just appreciated our time together and I hope we can be good friends. I love talking about sexuality and all the facets of it--it is so interesting to me because there's guidelines but also not at the same time.

I never want to miss another one of these again it made me feel genuinely upset so I won't do that. I will give us grace cuz we were busy BUT we musn’t make that a norm.

See you tomorrow! Also wish me luck on the math exam I am procrastinating studying for :3

[purble-turble]

Love potion universe but nothing to do with the love potion, how was the poly before azure nonsense? I know macaque was exclusive to wukong. Anyone not banging someone else in the poly? (ex- dbk and wukong didn't hook up, or yellowtusk and peng didn't hook up, etc) and who was romantically in love with who? Below I'm putting in my guesses. Tell me how right or wrong I am

Macaque, obvious. Azure is interested sexually in all of them and loves them in different ways but he's in love with wukong, and he thought wukong also had "some romantic interest" but was unhappy about not being his favorite/#1. Wukong also is sexually interested in all of them, but as previously established wasn't even a little bit in love with azure since in an au where he gets love potioned, he becomes obsessed. Safely assumed the only one he's in love with is macaque. Peng has a hate crush on macaque that might be only sexual but might have some romance longing. I also assume that at least sometimes when they're with wukong they pretends it's macaque, because that's really messy, and this situation is completely messy. They are attracted to everyone, but might be in love partly or a lot with azure and/or yellowtusk. Dbk, no clue. You could go the way he's in love with everyone to some degree, or could go the way ironfan was the first person he ever loved, or something in between. He does assume everyone is romantically interested in everyone though, has no clue about the messiness and favoritism going on below the surface (beyond the obvious macaque favoritism). Yellowtusk isn't attracted to anyone actually, but he sees sex as a bonding activity and a way to make his brothers feel good. Only romantically interested in azure, but he knows azure only had eyes for wukong

I love the breakdown you have here anon! Honestly I am pretty much 100% with you on almost everything there.

Especially the bit about Peng.. They definitely are in hate/love with Macaque and use their time with Wukong to sort of pretend it’s Mac too! But also yes, Yellowtusk and Azure are also their favorites.

Yellowtusk I always saw as being sort of in love with Azure, but I also really like the idea you broached here of him being somewhat aromantic as well. Being part of this big poly brotherhood is a good way for him to still be in a relationship without having to deal with the stress of being somebody’s one and only companion (which I think he would hate) which can be a lot of pressure for someone who isn’t fully invested in that sort of thing. Sharing is caring, after all~

DBK I do have some thoughts about. Since in the show, he pretty clearly falls in love at first sight with Princess Iron Fang in the middle of a battle, I think DBK assumed he was gay for most of his life, but turns out he is secretly (even to himself) a bisexual disaster 😂 He likes all the brotherhood and has had a physical relationship with all of them (except Macaque who is only with Wukong but he doesn’t mind that) and up until he met Iron Fan he probably assumed that he was in love with all of them in equal measure. And he DOES love them… sort of. Or at the very least he respects them all and enjoys their company, and that’s probably what that means, right? …Well, it’s only when he gets his world completely rocked by that gorgeous Celestial Maiden that he has an OH moment. Turns out he likes women too… well actually no. Not women. THAT woman. He wants HER. No one else will do. He must win her over- Everything and everyone else be damned.

The rest of the brotherhood is definitely surprised by this development.. DBK probably seemed the most ardent of them all that women weren’t worth his time before, but he meets this one and overnight he’s turned into #1 wife guy… no wonder Azure and those two were so hostile towards him in season 4. It probably felt pretty hurtful turn around for him to abandon them for some woman they lost a battle to all of a sudden, with absolutely no warning.

[bisexualfagdyke]

What do you think jeanee dynamic would be like in a world where jean wasn't sold to the moriyamas? Idc that they probably never would have met but i care if u think their dynamic would be different if he was significantly less traumatized (totally not an overcomplicated ploy to fish for fluffy trauma-free jeanee headcanons)

WELL. Firstly this will probably be romantic in nature bcuz I am simply a girlie who loves bi4bi jeanee and I know u dont ship them but YKNOW!!!

Hmm. This is not something I've ever thought about, honestly. There's just soooo many things to consider. Would he go to school, make friends there? What would his life look like? His trauma from the raven's has probably fundamentally shaped a large portion of his personality because of how severe and constant it was. It's so genuinely hard for me to consider what he would be like as a person if he was never sold to the Moriyama's.

But I can just ALWAYS see him being a gentle person, and I can see him working well with Renee no matter the circumstances. If she had met him when things weren't how they were in canon, if he didn't have so so much to work through, I can imagine them having a very simple and easy romantic relationship. I can see them having such a peaceful, beautiful life together. But it's also like, I do believe he latched onto Renee and fell for her partly because she was one of the first people to show him care and kindness.... she literally saved his LIFE and that shapes a lot of their relationship, shapes how important she is to Jean. And I think Renee understands people like Jean and Andrew specifically because of what all of them have gone through. She understands misunderstood people who struggle with trauma and mental health problems.

Regardless, I would give anything for Elodie to be alive and to see Jean grow up with her. I imagine Renee would get along so well with Elodie too :,) and she would totally admire how gentle and loving Jean is towards his sister. And Elodie would ADORE Renee for sure. Imagine Jean and Renee just being "best friends" at the start, but Elodie pestering Jean to make a move on Renee bcuz she loves Renee so much and wants Renee to be part of their family.

I can also see Jean just being such a WifeGuy. Like absolutely obsessed w his beautiful gf wifey Renee. Like totally cooking beautiful meals for her, over-the-top romantic ass date nights, buying her gifts constantly, and just being sooooo smitten over her and so in love and malewife. Where's that one meme of that guy on ambien reddit like "my wife is soft nd I liek her" THAT IS LITERALLY JEAN ABT RENEE BUT instead its like "my wife is so Strong and she could beat me up and Kill me in a fight. I lov e her :)" . Also Renee big spoon btw if u even care. Jean is literally her soggy little cat . Also like.... they could soooooooo be transfem4transfem in my eyes?!? Trasfem bi butch Jean, transfem bi futch Renee 🤝 they're like bisexual yuri